It's been about a year now, but I still remember the first time as if it was yesterday. I went to the open mic night at the Claremont Folk Music Center. (That explains all the different stringed instruments in the background.)This was the first time I have ever performed in public and it definitely shows.
After all the acting classes I've taken, I thought I had it covered, but my subconscious had other things in mind. The fight or flight part of my brain kicked in big time. A year later and it's only slowly getting better. You'll see the progress (or lack of it) in my upcoming video posts.
I thought it would be fun to share this experience so that if anyone is thinking about taking a risk, they might get something from my experience that will help them through it. And I have nothing but compassion.
So my hands got cold, the fingers got stiff and I told them what to do but it was a battle. I moved my mouth to remind me of the melody, I swore internally at my fingers, I got my leg going, and somehow I managed to get through the performance.
But that was enough. I think I tweeted something afterwards to the effect that you know you are doing the right thing when you screw up but still get a positive high and can't wait to do it again. Oh yeah, and my fingers shrank too, I tossed off a ring at the end of the performance. Luckily, the guy who caught it in the front row gave it back..